It doesn't seem like it's been that long since I posted. But I guess time flies when your life is repedatory and mundane. LOL

Went to the KISS concert in the Soo with my brother Greg, his girlfriend Marie and Trent. I was amazed at how much Trent actually enjoyed it. I expected him to stand in one spot pouting until it was over. he actually got into it. I could've done without the "Paul Stanley is SOOO Gay" comments. I mean, come on, like it's not obvious! HEHE. It all went to hell when he screamed out "How many of you people wanna hear a song about putting things in your mouth?!"  Even I teared up at that and then laughed uncontrollably. Trent laughed so hard the security guards gave him a really, really odd look. Here's the weird thing...the song they played after was "Lick it up"  and it's like -- unless you're gay, you're not really putting something in your mouth, if you're a guy. and yeah, yeah -- I know...some guys DO put the whole damn pelvic region of girl's bodies in their mouths, or so it seems. Anyway -- the concert was awesome. Sad to say (HAHAHA NOT!) that we missed the opening acts. One of them was called Clown Sac (no, I'm NOT kidding). They're from the Soo and call themselves a mix of Insane Clown Posse and Rob Zombie. They may have the gay "evil clown" makeup down from ICP, but they are no where near anything like Zombie. First of all -- they SUCK ASS!!!! Anyway, I digress. The other opening band we didn't hear or see anything of. While Kiss was getting ready to start tho, one of the guys from the Clown band was wandering around the crowd near us. Trent just kept whispering -- if he comes near me I'm gonna hurt him -- don't let him near me. LOL I was thinking the same thing. Damnit I hate clowns.

What else is going on? Hmm. Lots of transcription work. Feel like I'm surgically attached to my keyboard most days. The Shores is still the Shores, despite Skip saying Gopher's was taking over Aug 1 - and he had PROOF! LOL Funny, we're still there.

Supposed to go see Clutch in Milwaukee on the 23rd -- that'll KICK ASS!! Jasmine, you're not far from there -- maybe we could get together for the first time in oh ----- what it is now?  13, 14 years??? How weird would that be. LOL We should invite John! HA!

Okay, enough for now.

Love ya all

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Let's start with the rumor mill. Been hearing for a few months now that Helen has sold the restaurant. She keeps denying it. Saying my sister would be the first to know. Well, I'd hope so, since Becky owns part of the place and has been working there for like, 24 years!!! But then on saturday, Skip [her husband] comes in ranting and raving and saying he's seen the check and the contract and that Gopher's [another little cafe here] is taking the place over October first. Well, my jaw dropped. I was ticked off all night long. Before I went home I called Trent and told him that when I decided between the restaurant and Starbucks, I may have made a bad choice. Didn't sleep at all that night. I didn't even know if Becky would come in the next morning if she found out there was any truth to the whole thing. She said she talked with Helen and that the whole thing is bullshit. But I've had SO many people asking me about it and telling me they've all heard it's a done deal. I just don't know if Helen is really THAT big of a bitch that she'd lie right to Becky's face like that. I just don't know...and it's freaking me out, man! I've worked in that place practically my whole life, since I was 13. I know all of our customers and most of them are like family to us. It's hard to deal with a lot of times because a lot of our customers are elderly. When we lose one, it's heartbreaking. A couple months ago, we lost Mr. Ricker [jazz, you know Jed Ricker? It's his grandfather]. He had gone through a really long, hard fight with prostate cancer a few years back and came out cancer free. Then suddenly it was back. He died in under a month from the time they told him it was back. His wife didn't come in for over a month. When I saw her again, I sat down next to her in the booth and put my arm around her. She said, "Please, don't be nice to me. I'll cry." It was too late, we were both crying. Geezus, I'm tearing up now. So it's like, if Helen DID sell the place, I'm not just out of a job -- it's my life, really. Anyway--I guess I'll just have to wait and see what the facts are.
Then we have the feast or famine dilemma. I do transcription work from home. Half the time I can't find enough to even bother with. Well, now I've got contracts with what is it? I think five different companies. Plus I still pick up work from my friend Terrie once in a while. I'm typing so much I feel like I'm surgically attached to my keyboard and headset half the time. But I guess money is always a good thing!
Then, on top of this, I get a call from Marquette General today seeing if I want to come in for an interview. Not even sure what the job is. They found my resume on Michigan Works, I guess. UGH! I don't even know what to do with all of this right now!

I NEED A VACATION DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!

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Bet that got your attention. LOL

Our camera has a digital still option. So we've been takin some pics of our animals. Gonna have to load some on here later after work. As for the videos taken with the camera -- yeah, they're not gettin posted!

I saved a little baby bird the other day. He had a broken wing. Took him to a local vet. The vet called this morning to tell me he's going to be okay. That made me feel better!

OOOOH! Got free tickets to see Clutch in August at The Rave/Eagles club in Milwaukee. WOOHOO! I think I own more Clutch shirts than I do shirts for work...

Friday is KISS at the Soo. Trent's not really all that into it, but since my brother is paying for it...he figures what the hell? LOL Typical guy thinking.

My brother Gus needs to be strung up by his toes in the hot sun for....oh....about a decade. ASSHOLE!!!

Anyway, later!

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okay, so I get nudged to post. then nothing. WTF is up with that?

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Since my "dear" friend Ken gave me a "nudge" [stragest email I think I've ever seen that didn't have the words viagra or penis in it] here is an update. Nothing is new, really. same shit, different day. I tried working at Starbucks for a little while. Man -- that SUCKS! Take the job because you get told "oh, you only need to put in 20 hours a week to get benefits" and then only get scheduled for about 17 a week. Nice, huh? Oh well, typical of my life. Still at the restaurant and doing transcription work from home. Still with Trent and STILL not married. He wears his wedding band though. Not quite sure why, really. He says "well you wear your ring". I look at him oddly and say, "Yes, women WEAR engagement rings before they get married. Men don't." But oh well. I guess in a way, it's nice of him.
Let's see, been a little over a year since I posted....hmm. Well, david Forsberg passed away this February. He's the husband of the woman who owns the restaurant I work at. Lived across from my parents my whole life. He got cancer. Started out as a mass on his shoulder blade. They removed that and then it spread to his lungs....then his bones...and finally his brain. Went to the funeral services and seriously thought I'd walked into the wrong place when I looked at the casket. Looked nothing at all like the David I'd known and loved since I was a baby. It's so sad, just the thought of it now is making me cry.
Oh, Jasmine -- if you haven't already heard, John's grandma passed away in February, too. He didn't say what it was that killed her, but with the way she smoked and drank, I'm amazed she lived as long as she did.
Oh--one more for the death list--Justin Bailey died. He was a very good friend of mine from the 9th grade on. actually kind of dated him in the 9th -- although we hardly ever even kissed. Then he came out about a year later. Very sadly, he died of AIDS. He is missed.
Hmm....what else? Oh, my brother Greg is taking Trent and I to go see KISS in Sault Saint Marie on the 20th of July. He started buying me KISS albums when I was a baby and always sang "Beth" to me over the phone when he was away for the Army, which was most of the time. I can't wait! I've never been to a concert with him and I don't think any other band could be more perfect! Playing in full makeup and costumes -- and OUTSIDE! Now I just gotta hope that it doesn't rain!
Anyway, how's everyone else? write and let me know. And I'll try to not let so much time pass before I post again.

Love ya all,

Beth

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I hate going day to day watching people I care about getting trampled on because they care too much for people that don't deserve it. Sadly, I have the same affliction. my friend Ken is over in Iraq defending our country and giving freedom to the Iraqi people. In the meantime, he's got some girl in the states screwing with his head and heart. I don't know the whole situation, mind you, but it still pisses me off to no end. When my now ex-husband was deployed in the Gulf, I don't think I could have even imagined doing anything to add to the burden he already carried. If I had cancer, he'd find out when he came home. If something really terrible happened, he found out when he came home. And not right when he came home. After he'd had time to readjust to life at home. But some people are just sick, I guess. and they don't care much about who they hurt as long as they're happy.
Anyway--things here are about the same. Still no date. surprise, surprise! {WHY do I have Gomer Pyle's Voice stuck in my head] My mom actually asked me tonight if I'm sure I want to stay with Trent. the words that flew out of my mouth were "I have no idea, mom." And it seems to be true. We seems to have more problems and fights than good times. And what is up with men thinking they can 'make up' with you by having sex with you? HELLO! You pissed me off or fucked up. WHY on EARTH would I wanna have sex with you, idiot?
If you're completely lost, my biggest problem lately with Trent is him downloading porn or visiting pron websites and then lying about it when I find that he's done it. Oh, it's all pop ups. Or, it was on the forum, I didn't go there. Oh really? Then why do you have a membership for the website? Hmm. Must've been magic. I hate it when people think they have something on me. No one does. no one ever can. Then, smartass thinks he'll change the user passwords for the computer. That is until I threaten to wipe the entire harddrive and not allow him ANY access to the computer at all. See, you fuck with the computer, you fuck with my income. Not cool. Not something wise to pull on a Irish, German, Swedish Redhead. Not if you want to live to see tomorrow, anyway. Needless to say, things changed. Now he has no access unless I decide to grant it to him. Doubt it. But if he behaves and apologizes, I might consider it. After I change the internet settings so he can't possibly look at ANY nudity.
Okay, I have to work now.

OH! I talked to Erik out in San Diego the other night. I hate to admit I sometimes miss him. But he's one of the few people that I know that have actually ever really understood me down to the atmoic level. Sadly, we had individual problems that kept us from getting along well enough to sustain a relationship. One, I needed him to not fuck other women. Well, really, that was our downfall. Although he denies it to this day, I know he's lying. Because a very good friend of mine said he SAW him - literally SAW him in bed with another woman.

Okay, really, I have to work now.

Later!

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Well- it's been a while since I've posted anything on here. Not a whole lot going on, really. Trent is going out of state for the night for the yearly meeting for the Kingdom Hall. Yes - those of you who know me know how I am about religion - but it's his thing, not mine. He's not trying to convert me or anything like that. Not that he'd have a chance in hell anyway. I mean, okay, it's great to have beliefs and faith and all of that. But organized religion, to me, is something that man made in order to turn people into followers. Not believers. And religious factions that try to make you think that if you don't follow them you're going to die a horrible, agonizing death are just wrong. You don't have to attend a church to believe in God or a higher power - or to pray. Anyone who's seen Stigmata has heard the lines "Lift a Stone and I am there. Break a Twig and You Will Find Me." It's supposed to be from a gospel written by Jesus, himself. and to me it says that you don't need the church. You don't need other people. All you need is faith. Anyway. That's just my view.
I got off point there. Anyway - he's going for the night. I have a ton of transcriptions to do after I get home from the restaurant tonight. And then tomorrow, my family wants me to go to Big Bay to camp for the Memorial Day services at the cemetery. My brother Phillip is buried there. He died when he was a baby and I never knew him. But I still cry whenever I visit his grave. Just typing about it now brought that sting to my eyes. Geez, I hate that. I don't know if I'm gonna go. My family is a bunch of drunks and I don't much care for hanging around them when they've been at it for a couple hours. Especially on a day like that, when emotions are high. They get nuts. They argue. Sometimes they fight. Don't I have enough shit to deal with without walking into that, too? But then again, if I don't go, they'll bitch about it. Hmm. What to do.
My friend Ken is having some troubles. Both personal and professional and I'm worried about him. can't do much from here than tell him I am here for him if he needs someone, though. CAn't very well fly to Iraq. Oh, yeah, and then there's the point that I WOULDN'T FLY TO IRAQ! Sorry, love ya Ken...but nope. NOT GONNA DO IT!
My dad is getting very sick. He just got diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease. And my mom thinks he had another TIA yesterday afternoon. Well gee, mom. That's just great. And what'd you do? Nothing? Just sat there? Yeah...that was the best plan of action. Couldn't have POSSIBLY taken him to the hospital? CHRIST MY FAMILY MAKES ME MAD!!!
Okay, anyway, I have to get ready to go to hell. I mean the restaurant for work. somebody, anybody - HELP ME!!!!

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Sor those of you who don't know this, I work as a transcriptionist at home when I'm not working at thedamned restaurant. I'm doing a transcript right now of a medical conference that was held in Cape Town, South Africa last month. They even had Desmond Tutu speaking at this one. It's on the work they're doing on drugs to treat and prevent HIV/AIDS. Once I'm done with it, I'll post a link to the site so anyone who would like to can go and read about it. It's really interesting work. And if you know anyone affected by the disease, it may bring them some hope and give them something to talk to their doctors and other people they know that are infected. I'm sure a lot of you have already heard that there are companies working on a vaccine to prevent AIDS. But the things they're working on in this discussion cover a much broader spectrum of protection possibilites. Really, I think everyone should read about this and pass it on.

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